Again my journey as RA patient not end yet

2012, New year bring new life for me, being at office again is a nice feeling inside that i can’t explain to anyone by any suitable word but deep inside in my heart there a something very-very hurt waiting for me.
The next operation on my right hip still waiting for me oh my GOD, if i can i want to run away , but do I have choice? The next operation will be schedule on 14 March but, I ask to extend I have a lot things to do for myself as well but the most important for the time being I can’t bear to face it, personally I am not ready again after three times operation done last year. It terrible, horrible and so on, only me can explain and know what I have been through all this while of journey, being admitted in hospital a few time are really make me sick.
I ask to apply for sponsor from my office and it take a few month to approve, anyhow I don’t mind as long my hip not felt so bad for the time being, Frankly speaking now I am not ready both mental and physical. I know I can’t avoid the operation but now I really need the space to breath.
Even now my ankle give me problem together with my eczema (skin problem) but I wish the pain can go anytime and as soon as possible, it make me hard to walk properly without walking stick with me, it really pain inside.
I really hope that my journey will end soon; I tired to face all this .AMEN

The most important person in mylife throughout the journey...

Rumah Terbalik Di Sabah

Miss to write again...
Well last 05 Febuari yang baru lalu, saya berkesempatan untuk melawat place yang agak famous sekarang di newpaper dan laman-laman facebook iaitu “Rumah Terbalik” ,is advantages untuk saya kerana lokasinya tidak jauh dari rumah saya Cuma mengambil masa lebih kurang 30 minit boleh sampai ke sana. Ia terletak betul-betul dekat dengan jalan raya di area Tamparuli iaitu terletak di kampung Telibong.
Yuran masuk RM10 untuk dewasa dan RM5 untuk kanak-kanak dan budak sekolah. Menurut sumber ketika saya dan keluarga datang melawat ia baru sahaja hari ke 5 di buka...YIPPEE tidak heranlah berduyun-duyun pelawat dan ia dibuka untuk lawatan pada setiap hari bermula jam 8 pagi hingga ke 8 malam.
Kawasannya tidaklah terlalu luas, Cuma rumah yang dibuat ini memang agak unik bila semuanya dibina dalam keadaan terbalik malangnya keadaan dan gambaran sebenar dalam rumah tidak dibenarkan untuk mengambil gambar, Cuma saya boleh kongsikan gambar-gambar yang diambil di sekitar rumah terbalik itu.
Bagi mereka yang agak sensitive, Kepala mungkin akan berasa agak rasa pusing dan pening . Ini mungkin disebabkan terlalu mendongak keatas melihat benda-benda yang berada di atas siling dan keadaan rumah yang dibina tidak begitu rata. Cuma bayangkan jika dunia kita terbalik benda-benda yang ada di depan kita sekarang di terbalikkan.
Barang-barang seperti katil, kusyen,peti sejuk,meja makan, tandas dan lain-lain berada diatas sedang kan kipas dan air con berada di bawah, unik kan. Apapun it a nice experience, salute dan Thaniah kepada pemilik “ The Upside Down House “ ini kerana ia mempunyai idea yang begitu kreatif, lagi memukau perhatian adalah kereta kancil milik tuan rumah juga di terbalik kan,Ini adalah rumah terbalik yang pertama di Borneo dan Negara kita Malaysia .
Untuk melihat sendiri kena datang merasai pengalaman yang hebat ini. Ia hanya berkeluasan dalam 140 kaki persegi sahaja.Di sekitarnya disediakan kedai cenderahati yang menjual T-shirt, gelas dan berbagai cenderahati kenangan untuk di bawa balik dengan potongan sebanyak 25% dan tandas umum untuk kegunaan pelawat.

SELAMAT MELAWAT
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Dragon - GONG XI FA CHAI

Gong Xi Fa Chai for everyone...

Agak lama tidak menulis untuk blog, sejak kembali semula bekerja seolah-olah saya tidak punya masa untuk menulis, sekadar melawat blog sahaja, yang pasti saya rasakan kehidupan saya agak memenatkan kan kerana kesihatan saya belum pulih sepenuhnya tetapi saya tetap berjuang untuk meneruskan kehidupan saya.
Setiap hari adalah “gift” bagi kehidupan saya , dapat hadir bekerja merupakan permulaan yang baik bagi tahun yang baru dalam kehidupan saya.
Seperti tahun- tahun sebelumnya , Tahun Baru Cina adalah sambutan yang tidak pernah kami lupakan, Walaupun Datuk dan Nenek saya telah lama pergi tapi tradisi itu tetap di amalkan sekadar untuk tujuan berkumpul sesama keluarga sempena cuti perayaan, tidak di nafikan kami juga berdarah cina dengan siang “CHIN” tetapi sudah tidak lagi mengamalkan hal-hal keagamaan budha.
Namun begitu kami tetap merayakan dan berharap tahun “DRAGON” pada tahun ini membawa seribu satu kebahagian kepada keluarga kami biarlah segala memori pahit itu cuma menjadi sejarah pada setiap di antara kami, mulakan hidup yang baru dengan penuh semangat dan keinsafan.
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU CINA PADA SEMUA...

back to normal life in 2012

There a quite long i did not keeping updating my blog due to busy life, to fix many things in life....how i miss to write again.
Without counting I had been left office for almost 2 year, how time fly so fast, many things happened in my life and family as well. Going through a few operation and still not end make me feel really upset.
On 04 January 2012 I back to office again, Finally back to work...even the health condition not so good but i have to do it, like the doctor and parents suggest i must attend to work again after a long –long holiday hu hu.
Truly I am happy going to work again meeting the old friend and miss the work that I left behind, they are many new faces and there are a few transfers to other places.
Lastly, I still hope 2012 give changes in my life, more health, more meaningful and going to be happy life again...

Welcoming 2012

Happy New Year 2012 Everyone...
Tahun baru kali ini not same like the other year,banyak sangat hal berlaku jiwa ku terasa begitu kosong , kesedihan itu masih terlalu kuat , kecewa dan hampa masih bersarang. Jiwa seolah-olah berterbangan di awangan, fikiran kosong terlalu banyak masalah yang menghantui saya begitu juga dengan keluarga saya,satu demi satu dugaan datang dalam kehidupan kami,kadangkala rasanya tidak tertanggung tetapi kami pasrah dengan segala rencana dari yang Maha Esa,kini tahun baru menjelma tidak lain saya mengharapkan sinar baru dalam kehidupan saya dan pastinya untuk keluarga mahu melupakan tahun 2011 yang banyak menempah sejarah hitam dalam kehidupan keluarga kami.
AZAM?
Pastinya mahu lebih sihat dan kehidupan kami sekeluarga beransur pulih dan bersabar meniti hari-hari yang mendatang dengan tabah.
Apa pun saya mengharapkan tahun 2012 , semua ahli keluarga ku akan diberkati dan diberikan kesihataan yang baik,kurnia dan mukjizat yang tidak kami terbayangkan dari tuhan dan yakin bahawa setiap yang berlaku itu mempunyai hikmah yang tersendiri tanpa kami sedari dengan iman yang teguh kami pasti mampu mengatasinya.
AMEN
Again, welcome 2012

Good Bye of the book of memories 2011

Good bye for year 2011, gone with unforgettable memories in my life.
Two major memories were happened:
1) Myself undergo three major operation for this year
2) Our sweet house Burt by the fire.
The year very very “hurt and tragic” for my family but still thankful for GOD that my family can reunion and of course care, supporting and loving each other.
I just only hope that this coming new year 2012 bring new bright, new shining not only for myself but for my family as well.
Good Bye 2011....

p/s: Thank you for all supporter out there..

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2011

Even celebrating xmas this year is not same like the other year but xmas is still xmas.

...Wishing everyone who celebrating xmas...May blessing for the xmas give every person good life, good health and good anything.
.CHEERES

My Heart fly away...

December 2011 coming to the end, usually by this time every year my mum and I busy to set up the Christmas tree for preparing for coming X’mas...BUT this year is totally different..No house means no celebrating xmas at all...how sad to think...my health also same getting worst...huhu...sometimes they are so many things happend in our life cannot be explain with any word..Only GOD knows...
p/s Angle pls come...

Food For Heart

p/s: It just like yesterday ....miss u my sweet home.

GOOD BYE TO OUR SWEET HOME...

It hard to share the moment that I and family would never forget for the rest of our life.
01 December 2011 at 4.00 am, everytime I remember that day my tears down from my cheeks, it very hard to say good bye to my family sweet home that was burt by the fire. We had been stayed there almost 33 years, all the memories is still remain forever even the house is gone, unexplained feeling inside but very thankful that three of us which stayed at home by the time were saved ( my parents and me) . Our sweet home only needs less than one hour to finish everything before the fireman came along. None things can be saved from the fire. We also don’t know what the causes but most probably the electric circuit are.
Whatever reason life goes on........
Now we try starting to build our new life from zero
Thank you for everyone who came and support us both in moral and material, we really appreciated it.
Only I hope that we have strength to carry on our daily life, when time past by I believed our hurt will be slowly cure...

GOOD BYE MY SWEET HOME...

Sometimes....

HARD TO KNOW
LIFE WHAT IS IT?
CANTS BE BOUGHT
OR BE SOLD,
NOT TO LEAVE
OR TO HOLD
SOMETIMES IT’S EASY,
SOMETIMES TOUGH,
SOMETIMES IT’S SMOOTH
SOMETIMES TO ROUGH,
SOMETIMES IT’S CREST
SOMETIMES THROUGH,
SOMETIMESIT’S EMPTY,
SOMETIMES ENOUGH….

Thing to be thankful for:-

It’s been a hectic year for me from early Feb till Sept 2011 with my three major operations then after that busy for recovering time till now.
My life had big changes eventually many things had to be considering to adopt a new life and a whole new way of thinking
It helps me to actually write out what I am thankful and grateful for my life because otherwise it very hard, terrible and horrible time before, we are easy to complain about life but sometimes we forget things to be thankful in life:-
1) I’M thankful for GOD for my improvement health even though I am not 100% cure for the time being but its more more better condition than before.
2) I’M thankful for having a wonderful family especially for my parents, sibling and other close member of family for their support moral for me when I really needed it, for their helping and praying.
3) I’M thankful for my entire friend and member support for who came and visited me during my very hard time, bring me smile then I know there are many people around me and know who deserve to called a real friend.
4)I’m thankful for my church member for given a pray, visited and support moral for my speedy recovery.
5)I’M thankful to know and learn about life. What is all about the real life, learn how to patient and make a right decision of life and future.
6)I’M thankful for having IT technology nowadays that helps me minimize my bored life at home by surfing Internet, that make my life so meaningful and wonderful.
7)I’M thankful to knowing blog ,which I never dream to have a own blog which I can share and speak up anything I want and mostly about my health problem for the newly diagnosed with the chronic illness and all emotions I had been through before and how I carry on my life.

Bestnya 1B Kota Kinabalu..

Feel Happy today..Walking-walking at 1B kk with my mum, aunt and my cousin Maida,even my legs not fully recovery but I try my best to work slowly of course with my bestie walking stick around he he..
I am proud to be Sabahan...we had here the biggest hypermall in Asia..
p/s: Welcoming ...

The Circle

HUMIRA PEN

Introducing for my new meds in RA journey… call “HUMIRA”
For those suffering RA you might be seeing this meds one day in you journey of fighting you life as a RA (chronic Joint Problem disease) patient.
HUMIRA Uses
HUMIRA is a prescription medicine used alone OR with other medicines to reduce the signs and symptoms of moderate to severe rheumatoid arthritis in adults, may prevent further damage to your bones and joints, and may help your ability to perform daily activities.
HUMIRA ("Human Monoclonal Antibody in Rheumatoid Arthritis") or ADALIMUMAB
Preloaded 0.8 mL and also in preloaded pen devices (called Humira Pen)
With injected subcutaneously (Do once in two weeks) typically by the patient at home.
Injected only area stomach and upper thigh

P/S ; Make sure Keep the Humira pen in refrigerator all the time before use it .
Make sure in good condition before injection ( No fever, no cough no serious
health problem)

Confius..Beza antara BT, BTE dan BINTI?

Ada sahabat bertanya apakah beza antara 1) BT 2) BTE 3) BINTI ?

Sejujurnya saya pun tidak terfikir akan masalah ini..
Bagi saya semua itu sama saja maksudnya iaitu digunakan bagi orang wanita tapi
bagi penduduk Sabah ini digunakan tanpa mengira apakah agama penduduk tersebut
berbanding di Semenanjung yang digunakan bagi penduduk beragama Islam

Cth : Alysa Bt Allan
Alysa Bte Allan
Alysa Binti Allan
...saya pun masih confius...kerana saya sendiri menggunakan BTE...

Si Cantik Miss Universe 2012

Congrats...
si cantik bernama KIMBERLY LEGGET adalah miss universe Malaysia 2012
Berumur 18 tahun
Eurisan dan berasal dari Pulau Pinang

Kimberly Legget

Kimberly parents

It all about life

Beautiful Tuesday..
Congrats for the Harimau Malaya for won footballer game last night..
There a time some people happy but dont forget the other people in other side

p/s Life is given
No regret
No Turning Back
Life Goes On
** RIP to my Sister inlaw brother (Keifli Binty) who suffered for cronic Asthma
for a long time...I BELIEVED GOD LOVE YOU MORE...AMEN

FFM24..

FFM24 bersiaran di astro prima 105 Semalam entah dimana silapnya personally I am not enjoy to watched it but I am impressed dengan dress sebilangan artis yang saya minati…

KEPUTUSAN FFM24 FESTIVAL FILEM MALAYSIA 2011
1. Anugerah Box Office – KL Gangster
2. Anugerah Khas Juri Yang Pertama – Sidik Hussien
3. Anugerah Khas Juri Yang Kedua – Filem Libas
4. Anugerah Khas Juri Yang Ketiga – Allahyarham Zami Ismail
5. Anugerah Skor Muzik Asal Terbaik – Edry Abdul Halim (Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa)
6. Anugerah Pereka Kostum Terbaik – Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa
7. Anugerah Penyunting Terbaik – KL Gangster (Syamsul Yusof & Hisham Jupri)
8. Anugerah Penataan Bunyi Terbaik – KL Gangster (Hisham Jupri & Rizal Ashreff)
9. Anugerah Cerita Asal Terbaik – Filem Libas
10. Anugerah Lakon Layar Terbaik – KL Gangster
11. Anugerah Sinematografi Terbaik – Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa
12. Anugerah Penataan Seni Terbaik – Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa
13. Anugerah Pelakon Pembantu Wanita Terbaik – Faezah Elai (Filem Cun)
14. Anugerah Pelakon Pembantu Lelaki Terbaik – Shofi Jikan (Filem KL Gangster)
15. Anugerah Pencapaian Gemilang – Michelle Yeoh
16. Anugerah Pelakon Wanita Terbaik – Eja (Filem Janin)
17. Anugerah Pelakon Lelaki Terbaik – Shaheizy Sam (Filem Kongsi)
18. Anugerah Pencapaian Sepanjang Hayat – Tan Sri Jins Shamsuddin
19. Anugerah Pengarah Terbaik – Syamsul Yusof (KL Gangster)
20. Anugerah Filem Terbaik – Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

P/s Congrats kepada yang berjaya merangkul anugerah,segala penat lelah anda telah terbalas dan kepada yang kurang berjaya kali ini tidak semestinya anda tidak baik.
GEMILANG FILEM MALAYSIA
All foto sumber : beautifulnara.com

Finally...

Happy Sunday..
For almost 2 years i did not drove a car...but this week I manage to did it YaaaYaa
unexplain feeling (Happy + Nervous + excited )

Thank GOD...Finally I slowly got back my life again